
It's August? Already? ..No way! Yes way. I am so behind with everything because I've been procrastinating since May! Now, my six week programs won't be finished on time. I can't even start it right now, because my dad isn't home for me to get his credit card number. FUCK. Who knew 'learning modules' were six weeks long? Not me. Alright, but I should have seen that coming.. I should have checked it out before I set a date to start. I'm leaving in less then a month a still haven't packed clothes or anything. I'm not ready for this yet. This is too much stress ..and work for my lazy ass this summer. I just want to have fun, with the people that would that possible. Look at me? Man. I've been so caught up with Facebook --thank goodness I deactivated my account. And after that, I realized who actually wanted to keep in touch. Then my mind's been all up in how I feel about Mr. Yeah. Some nights I still think about him ..and cry? Wow. It's so stupid because clearly I don't feel the way I used to about him. I guess it's just sad to let go. But, do you know how
long I've been in this? Almost
two years. I bet you guys didn't know me and him had
that much history, did you? As for school, I've been having another burden.. driving school. It makes me feel slightly productive, but before I even go to class, I'm probably not doing anything at all. And today is Monday, and I'm waiting for Jennifer to call me because she told me she would. Man, do I miss her! No Homo ;] (and I think I say that with Jennifer because we both know it is homo --of course no disrespect) But I've so caught up and wrapped up in ..N O T H I N G! God, please, please, help me rid my bad habits; let me work hard in school, please, let me take everything more serious. I get so sick and disgusted of myself, not because of the things I've done (though there are things..), it's the nothing I do that I am sick and disgusted of. I am such a bum. I am not active. And with my lazy attitude, I've gained so much weight, and all I do is complain about it!, with my already short height, the weight is bringing me down. literally. I'm shrinking. And, Look! Still at this moment, I am still doing nothing besides complaining to a blog! ..well, I am baking a cake :], but that's adding to a whole list of nothing. This cake is being baked for no reason. OH! but don't get me wrong! I've read a few great books this summer! I really do enjoy reading, but that also makes me feel lazy because I'm just sitting and not moving. I also have a summer reading to do, but the book does not catch my interest.. whatsoever! ALRIGHT. Well, I think that's about it.
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